30 April 2006

"...but i feel like this."


Whenever i have a cold, i feel like a walking cliché. My nose is shiny & red, my eyes watery... I sneeze constantly. My problem with illness, i think, is that i don't believe in it... My process of "getting sick," which generally happens over the course of two or three days, starts with an odd tickle that i assume is the result of a middling night of drinking or too little sleep and instead of maybe getting a better nights sleep, resting up for a day or getting juiced on vitamin C, i challenge the cold to take me down... I take some Nyquil & drink more, wear fewer sweaters on chilly days and sleep as little as possible. I don't ever really believe i'm getting sick until i'm deep in... And to top it all off, i'm really lousy at actually being sick... Because i'm a whiny little bitch...

Anyway, after a long Friday of academic conferencing (starring Judith Butler & crazy cool Jazz poetry) & moderate drinking followed by a chilly (& rainy) Saturday afternoon of soccer* (followed by another evening of beer & wine at the kids' place {thanks guys--good times}) i am fully under the spell of a miserable malaise. And that sucks. So, i'll sign off groggily & grouchily...

*My 'good goalkeeper' hoax was revealed Saturday, when i let 3 goals by in the first half... Although i kept them scoreless in the second half, my poor performance (which included 1 goal hitting my hands and trickling on past into the goal) cost our team the victory. We tied 3-3 & while a tie isn't a loss, it is a tie.

4 comments:

noweverybody said...

You missed out on Bill Brown saying: "Art is what is new, if it isn't new it isn't art." And all the pain that came with that quote. You also missed Judith Butler saying that she wished she could be Gertrude Stein and also walking around sheepishly with her hands in her pockets like she wanted to chat with someone. Of course I, despite several moments of eye contact, was far too nervous.

seeger said...

ohh... but you could have opened with "UC-Berkeley, eh?" or "Feminist Vampire Porn...???"
As for Bill Brown's point, it's stolen from Stan Brakhage(& therefore not artistic academia)'s idea that the artist shows us the new way of seeing/saying/hearing a thing that everyone else copies until another artist comes along...
ok, just over 2 hours to write my red schoolhouse assignment...

noweverybody said...

Glad to know you slack as bad as I do. Mine totes sucked today.

In a way I really dug Brown's point because it makes art so much less important to me. Like only the smallest part of what interests me. I like it better cordoned off I think.

seeger said...

you have no idea what "totes sucked" until you've read my paper for tomorrow... Hopefully he'll "punish" me for being late by not discussing it...